I felt this last night. I felt held in the Master’s arms.
Earlier in the evening fear started to creep in. I read something and immediately started to project what all this means. What life looks like in 6 months or a year a year from now. It was all negative. It was like a tentacle reached out of the screen and was trying to grab my heart in order to suck me deep into the vibration of panic and despair.
I not only put my phone down, I placed it screen down. It helped but it was not enough. I buzzed most of the night.
After I sent Jaden to bed I played “The Spirit if God”. I prayed to be comforted and started to read the words of Christ spoken through godly men. As the hours passed my fear dissipated. I communed with the Spirit until 2:00am.
I fell asleep feeling safe and protected.
I’m grateful for this truth that I experienced last night.
For GOD hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 1 Timothy 1:7.
I’m so grateful for every event in my life that has taught me to turn to Him in every thought. To doubt not and fear not. I’m not cool enough on my own to not feel fearful sometimes. Some things are really scary. Like my cancer diagnosis 4 years ago. But I know that I DO NOT have to fear if I don’t want to. Even when things are scary, I have a choice to tremble alone or tremble in His presence. When I tremble alone, I sink. When I tremble in His presence I am lifted to a safe place.
My peace is in knowing how to feel Him in the quiet hours of the night, and in being willing to allow Him to hold me.